Kahan...:)

kahan..?..kuch to nahi hai...aisa aaj sabko humne bol diya...
par us aag ki udti hui raakh ne saara raaz khol diya...
;-)

socha sawalon se kuch sakoon mile...
to thandi barf ki silliyaan seene pe liye chal diye...
Ufff!...par barf se udti dhundh ne fir se saara raz khol diya...
...:)....
kahan..kuch to nahi..aisa aaj ....

na jaane...

na jaane...yeh kaisa yakin hai...
ki har gunaah aapka lagta haseen hai....

kal shab se lekar aaj seher tak
...ka koi gilaah nahin hai...
na jaane...yeh hamara kaisa yakin hai...
ki har gunaah aapka lagta haseen hai....

tum....

poonam ki chaandni mein chalkar...
sardh subaho ki os mein pighalkar...
beete huye palo ki silwaton se nikalkar...
tanhai bhari karwaton se lipatkar...

tum yaad aaye...

yaad aaye tum mujhe har pal...pal pal...

Bas tum naa aaye ...tum naa aaye!!

......har hansi....

...har hansi khushi nahi hoti....
...kaash!!
..kash aisa hota.....
......jab chahte....
.........khush ho lete....
....saans lete aur jee lete....

har hansi....

..are you the man.....?.....

...accidentally touched upon this old stuff i had written ...i guess i had just joined my first yr of engg....days of new experiences...days of mills n boons...days of girly talks with my bunch of women ...days of day dreaming...sounds pretty childish...but this piece remains as one of my all time favorites...guess those were the days of growing up..:)



are you the man I desire.....?
or are you the man among the liars.....?

are you the man I can die for....?
or are you the man I can only sigh for....?

are you the man who ignites those feelings...?
or are you the man whose touch is simply healing....?

I long to find an answer to these...
then shall my unrest cease....

cease the fire of passion....
or cease which is only my imagination....

imaginations!! ah! and my dreams....
and you haunt them always it seems....

Get away! I want to get away from you....
I want to fly and set away from you....

It seems sometimes that you have crippled my sense of distinction....
i dont feel for anyone now...you are always there in my every perception.....

I miss the warmth of my old tattered pillow....
I miss the charm of the innocent halo....

I hate the transition....
from a girl to a woman my friends mention....

but alas you are the man who inspires the woman in me....
you are the man for whom a woman I want to be....!!!!

How often...

....how often do you feel scared of the fact that you are capable of hurting someone more than the fact that someone is capable of hurting you???
....how often you feel at peace and ease when the world is being offered to you; you want to sneak back into your own small corner???
....how often so much love is given to you and you dont want to take it up???
....how often you feel - what you did was right but still feel you should not have???
....how often...how often....?????

Oh God.....not again!

Just when I felt that things were going right, falling back into the "right" places...my demons have striked again....and like always...I am doubtful,confused and choked up!!

The uncertainties, the dilemmas and the questions floating around me...are so suffocating that I wish, If I could just tear apart the false shell of calmness around me...and run away where no one can reach me...!!

And right now the last thing I want is to get judged by anyone...and at the same time I wonder when will I finally settle down with myself...