Kahan...:)

kahan..?..kuch to nahi hai...aisa aaj sabko humne bol diya...
par us aag ki udti hui raakh ne saara raaz khol diya...
;-)

socha sawalon se kuch sakoon mile...
to thandi barf ki silliyaan seene pe liye chal diye...
Ufff!...par barf se udti dhundh ne fir se saara raz khol diya...
...:)....
kahan..kuch to nahi..aisa aaj ....

na jaane...

na jaane...yeh kaisa yakin hai...
ki har gunaah aapka lagta haseen hai....

kal shab se lekar aaj seher tak
...ka koi gilaah nahin hai...
na jaane...yeh hamara kaisa yakin hai...
ki har gunaah aapka lagta haseen hai....

tum....

poonam ki chaandni mein chalkar...
sardh subaho ki os mein pighalkar...
beete huye palo ki silwaton se nikalkar...
tanhai bhari karwaton se lipatkar...

tum yaad aaye...

yaad aaye tum mujhe har pal...pal pal...

Bas tum naa aaye ...tum naa aaye!!

......har hansi....

...har hansi khushi nahi hoti....
...kaash!!
..kash aisa hota.....
......jab chahte....
.........khush ho lete....
....saans lete aur jee lete....

har hansi....

..are you the man.....?.....

...accidentally touched upon this old stuff i had written ...i guess i had just joined my first yr of engg....days of new experiences...days of mills n boons...days of girly talks with my bunch of women ...days of day dreaming...sounds pretty childish...but this piece remains as one of my all time favorites...guess those were the days of growing up..:)



are you the man I desire.....?
or are you the man among the liars.....?

are you the man I can die for....?
or are you the man I can only sigh for....?

are you the man who ignites those feelings...?
or are you the man whose touch is simply healing....?

I long to find an answer to these...
then shall my unrest cease....

cease the fire of passion....
or cease which is only my imagination....

imaginations!! ah! and my dreams....
and you haunt them always it seems....

Get away! I want to get away from you....
I want to fly and set away from you....

It seems sometimes that you have crippled my sense of distinction....
i dont feel for anyone now...you are always there in my every perception.....

I miss the warmth of my old tattered pillow....
I miss the charm of the innocent halo....

I hate the transition....
from a girl to a woman my friends mention....

but alas you are the man who inspires the woman in me....
you are the man for whom a woman I want to be....!!!!

How often...

....how often do you feel scared of the fact that you are capable of hurting someone more than the fact that someone is capable of hurting you???
....how often you feel at peace and ease when the world is being offered to you; you want to sneak back into your own small corner???
....how often so much love is given to you and you dont want to take it up???
....how often you feel - what you did was right but still feel you should not have???
....how often...how often....?????

Oh God.....not again!

Just when I felt that things were going right, falling back into the "right" places...my demons have striked again....and like always...I am doubtful,confused and choked up!!

The uncertainties, the dilemmas and the questions floating around me...are so suffocating that I wish, If I could just tear apart the false shell of calmness around me...and run away where no one can reach me...!!

And right now the last thing I want is to get judged by anyone...and at the same time I wonder when will I finally settle down with myself...

Office blues.........

...I hate to do code and doc reviews...makes me feel miserable...n guilty...
...cause i always face the dilemma of choosing between the two....

boredom Vs conscience ( not to overlook!!)...

a boredom..that almost kills you....
{{i can fry and eat my brains!!}}
....and a boredom that keeps your conscience alive!!!
{{hmm..i shud do it well }}
a conscience ..that makes u feel miserable....
{{ why am i doing this?? this is lunacy!!}}
...and a conscience...that makes u feel guilty
{{c'mmon i get paid for it..ouch!! something atleast.. }}

and while writing this post...i am still in the thick of it!!!... ;-)

{{just overlooked the conscience for some well deserved break!! :D }}

DONT!!

..dont kill it...
...dont expect me to change...dont expect yourself...
but hope to change what we have between us....
...dont brood...dont shout...dont cry...
but hope to feel better...
...dont think it does not hurt me...dont think it will not to you...
but hope it does not get worse
...dont shy...dont say goodbye...
but hope this could be a new beginning...

dont kill hope!!!!...dont kill it....

yaadon ko ab....

yaadon ko ab ghaanth mein bandh ke nahi rakhna...
milawat hone do zindagi mein..ab kuch chaanth ke nahi rakhna...
beh jaane do sab...waqt ki lahar mein...jo jaata hai jaane do..kuch mutthi mein nahi rakhna...

...5th Apr 07



ungliyo ko khuli hawa mein saans lene do...
kab se zindagi ko kase huyi..ab unhe jeene do...
khulengi...to nayi tasveer banayengi...rang bhar paayengi...
...ab unhe jeene do...

...6th Apr 07

...sometimes...

..sometimes i wish...that my life should revolve less around people...n more around myself...

well..thats a resolve i make always...n then forget to put it to practice...:)...
but then i wonder, those people are mine...i exist cause they do...without them i will lose the soul purpose of my actions , decisions of my life...ah!...

...but yet again...i wish....

...kuch pal....

..unki aankhon mein ek pal dekha...
par beeta hua kal dekha....

unmein subah se shaam thi....
ek pal maanga.....
par woh bhi us kal ke naam thi.....



socha tha ki bhool gayi hoon woh pal...
kyun ki pal...pal mein beet jaatein hai....

fir bhi na jaane kyun....
palko ke neeche aaj bhi pal rahe the woh pal....

On a lighter quote.....

...project management is an effecient tool to make the redundant managers indispensable!!

thoughts...that keep coming to me....

• ....Integrity....a word applicable to every aspect of life....a discipline....i live my life by....
• ....it only matters when people matter......
• ....love...is mystic....n lets keep it that way....otherwise it becomes messy!!