wish....

wish...they melt in your sleep....
before the morning shine touches your face....
wish...they vanish from your thoughts...
while passing through your mind's space...


wish...they wash away...
while you splash water and look yourself in the mirror....
wish...they sneak away from you....
when you take a new turn in your life around the corner....

those...memories....

Revisiting....Har Hansi...

...har hansi khushi nahi hoti....
...kaash!!
..kash aisa hota.....
......jab chahte....
.........khush ho lete...

I posted "Har Hansi...." last year and happened to have a conversation with someone today on it....I was delighted to read the person's response during my chat and decided to write them in my words ...so these are his thoughts...in my words...hoping that I have done justice to them..

fir kisi ne kuch kaha....

jaanta hoon teri har hansi kushi nahin hoti...
....magar un hilte labon ki ek jhalak
mai-kashi se kam nahin hoti....:-)

tere har zulm pe hansenge hum....
har gum-e-aansoo pe hans ke sharminda tujhe karenge hum....

kaisa mera khudaah tha...

kaisa mera khudaah tha...
aur kaisi yeh duniya us rab ne hai banayee...

aisa kya kiya gunaah tha...
ki zamaane bhar mein hui ruswaai...

aaj uth raha janaza tha...
aur maiyyat tak de rahe hai safai...

kaisa mera khudaah tha...
aur kaisi yeh duniya us rab ne hai banayee...

I am going to have a holiday!!

Just the other day I read Rahul's post on his blog on the movie "The Holiday" and loved the quotes from the movie. Somewhere I could identify with it....somewhere I couldn't. However, nevertheless it seemed interesting and I decided to watch this movie over the million others I have on my list!

I watched it today and though it travels through few fairytale kind of scenes..too good to be true....some scenes, some dialogues and some words touch you as if they were your own..:)!

But the one I loved the most for the kind of womanI think am....

Iris: Shush. You broke my heart. And you acted like somehow it was my fault, my misunderstanding, and I was too in love with you to ever be mad at you, so I just punished myself! For years! But you waltzing in here on my lovely Christmas holiday, and telling me that you don't want to lose me whilst you're about to get MARRIED, somehow newly entitles me to say, it's over. This - This twisted, toxic THING between us, is finally finished! I'm miraculously done being in love with you! Ha! I've got a life to start living.

And now I am smiling.....:) in my heart..............

nigaahen...

meri jhuki huyi thi....
magar unki kuch keh gayi...
ek lamhaan khudaii ka
fir bhi kuch baatein reh gayi...
jasbaaton ko jaise aaj woh zubaan de gayi...
nigaahen unki kuch yun keh gayi...

waqt...

waqt ruka nahin....
zindagi ka kaarwaan ab tak thaaka nahin...

bas kuch pal tham se gaye...
ab kuch naya nahin...
na ab kuch galat hai...naa kuch lage sahi...
saanse chal rahi hai...
dard ka ehsaas de jaati hai...
ki zinda hoon..baar baar keh jaati hai...

meri un kushiyon ka koi ab gawaah nahin...
dekho...tab bhi waqt ruka nahin....
zindagi ka kaarwaan ab tak thaaka nahin...

manzil thi...kho gayee...
raahein...safed chaadar odh ke so gayee...
kaafila logon ka fir bhi aage badha...

bas tera saath rahaa nahin...
dekho...tab bhi waqt ruka nahin....
zindagi ka kaarwaan ab tak thaaka nahin...

pehle beh jaatein the...bin baat ke
dheere dheere kam toh ho gaye...

magar abhi tak shayad baandh sookha nahi...
dekho...tab bhi waqt ruka nahin....
zindagi ka kaarwaan ab tak thaaka nahin...

Khwaab....

saans lene se pehle hi...
kisi geheri dhundh mein goom ho jaatein hai.
kaise khwaab hai...yeh mere khwaab kaise hai...

hasraton ke chehre...aakaar lene se pehle....
mere paas aatein aatein wapas mudd jaatein hai....
kaise khwaab hai...yeh mere khwaab kaise hai...

haaton mein kushiyaan aane hi lagi thi...
ki reth ki tarah, mootthi se beh gayi...
in haathon mein yaadon ki kuch bas lakeeren chodh jaatein hai.....
kaise khwab hai...yeh mere khwaab kaise hai...

kaise baandhoo inhe...
jab bhi paas aaye...rishto ki tarah...
mujhse rishta todh jatein hai...
kaise khwab hai...yeh mere khwaab kaise hai...

bahut sambhala inhe...bahut roka...
par aankhon se meri ashkon mein choot jaatein hai....
kaise khwab hai...yeh mere khwaab kaise hai...

ilzaam....

ilzaam hai hum pe ki hum dard ke baarein mein hi likhte hai...
magar ae yaaron aise hi to nagmein aajkal baazaar mein bikte hai...

kore panno pe aaj apni zindagi utaari hai...
yeh soch ke khatam karde is zamaane ki jo kuch udhaari hai....

kaali sihahi (ink) thi, magar lal rang ke cheetein kahin kahin faile se the...
safed panno ke kone kaafin jaghon pe maile se the...

gaur se palat ke dekha, tab samjha...
ki kuch lafzhon se khoon baha tha...

dheere dheere mere lafzhon ne sath chodh diya...
fir meri kalam ne mera hath chodh diyaa...

dard ke sath yeh kaisi bebasi si hai...
jaise mere janaze se kuch sanse kasi si hai...

rahat mile kuch!..baazaar ab bas band hone ko hai...
zindagi ka karobaar shayad ab khatam hone ko hai..