How often...

....how often do you feel scared of the fact that you are capable of hurting someone more than the fact that someone is capable of hurting you???
....how often you feel at peace and ease when the world is being offered to you; you want to sneak back into your own small corner???
....how often so much love is given to you and you dont want to take it up???
....how often you feel - what you did was right but still feel you should not have???
....how often...how often....?????

Oh God.....not again!

Just when I felt that things were going right, falling back into the "right" places...my demons have striked again....and like always...I am doubtful,confused and choked up!!

The uncertainties, the dilemmas and the questions floating around me...are so suffocating that I wish, If I could just tear apart the false shell of calmness around me...and run away where no one can reach me...!!

And right now the last thing I want is to get judged by anyone...and at the same time I wonder when will I finally settle down with myself...